Day 21

Yesterday was a good day I guess.

I did something right for once, because this morning I am at 154.7. Not the biggest lost, but it is a start from all the shit Ive been going through. I ended up having 3 small cups of coffee without sugar :) yaaay! 50gr of light peanuts, fat free yogurt, an apple and 2 slices of cheese at night. grrrrrrrrr.

That was the guy Im dating´s fault! Oh yeah.... things are great about him <3 <3 <3

Hes the cutest and I can not believe how happy I am, and its been only a week hahaha. Im silly. But yesterday he went to my place to watch a movie and was hungry so I made him a sandwich. He went to the kitchen to help me and started eating slices of ham and cheese and although I tried to stop him we were just fooling around and then he gave me cheese and I couldnt help it! I didnt want to be like Im too mature and I wont play with food, when I really just didnt want to eat.

ok, I guess it wasnt that bad:

2 slices of mozzarella cheese (whole milk)............... 170 cal

3 small cups of decaff coffee..................................   0 cal (According to Recipe Calculator)

a green apple........................................................   81.5 cal

50gr of light peanuts..............................................  120 cal

Activia fat free, no cholesterol yogurt.....................   80 cal

TOTAL: 451.5

Im back! :)

Much love to all of you!

Stay strong.

Day 20 - Happy Anna is back!!!!

OMG!!!

What did this guy do!!!!!!!!!? are u fucking kidding me????? Is there any better inspiration than this???? WOW!!! Seriously!!!!! I was watching the MTV VMAs last night and when this guy presented an award I was like who the hell is that??? Then he started making fun of his lost weight and I realized who he was!

What better way to start the week! Im sorry again for letting you down the past days.... I feel so much better now and Im ready to start again. As I was afraid of, I gain a lot of weight! Im 155.1 and it couldnt be worse. I feel like all I worked for the past 2 weeks I screwed it up in 4 days. Im very disappointed on myself. But I need to get it back! starting from now until Paris.

Although this was discouraging news, Im full of energy and ready to start out fresh! Remember the guy I met last week? Well he called when I was at my worst and was the sweetest person ever! I like him a lot. Friday night we went on a proper first date and had dinner and then cocktails! grrrrrrrr!!! we´ve been talking every single day since then and I feel great. He was a big help to get my mood back in track, but not the best for my diet. anyway....... Im in a really happy place now and ready to go! Thanks again for all the support! I wont let you down again!

xoxoxo

Day 19

Hi guys!
Thank you so much for all the support. I was really sad last week.... not only because of the eating but I dont know. I just felt so lonely. it was bad. and Im not proud of what I did.
It was not only one day. thursday, then friday, I ate horrible this weekend, I suck!!!!!

I forgot about everything. why was I dieting for? Work was crazy this week. I was falling apart, everything was bad. Im so sorry to let you down! I left myself down too. :(

Im ready to start over from tomorrow! I still have 28 days until I go to Paris. Its gonna be a fresh start and I need all your help and support to keep on track. Im super scared of the scale, I NEED to weight tomorrow morning and start again, but I will die if I gain too much. Seriously!

I have to be strong!!!!!!!!! I want all of you to be proud of me! enough is enough!!!!! I screwed it up this 4 days. but Im ready to smile again and clean my body from all the crap I putted in.

Day 16 - Im a failure!

Im a big failure! thats all I have to say.
I had a breakdown yesterday! m&ms, cheese, jam, crackers, mushroom soup, aghr, I hate myself!
Im in a really bad place right now! I dont even wanna post anymore. I almost throw up my bowels yesterday! I had forgotten what it was to do that and the emptiness you feel after, not only in your stomach, but in your soul.

Day 15

I still cant figure something out for my computer!
this sucks! I really want to comment on your blogs and I cant! Has anyone had a problem like this with blogger before? It says my account (annabarnes90@gmail.com) has no access to see that page, refering to any blog I go! I hate this!!!!!

This day is absolutly ridiculous! I left my apartment really late for work. Then I get to the office to realize I forgot the office keys at my house. Take a cab back, go for the keys, take another ridiculously expenssive cab back to work and this guy misses the street where he had to turn! GRRRRRR!!!!! ended up walking in the middle of the street trying to get to the office only an hour late!

Seriously! Ive been super cranky because this guy I told you about hasnt called or anything! What the hell! Now I feel like such a loser for: 1st. kissing him, and 2nd. thinking so much about him!
I did a horrible thing yesterday. I ate soooooooo much peanut butter!!!!! I bought the fat free one, because I read somewhere you could have strawberries with a spoon of peanut butter for a healthy snack. Well, I couldnt stop!!! I tried a little bit without the strawberries and fell deep down! Im disgusting!!!! And the worst thing was that I couldnt stop! ---- I can not believe I stepped out of my comfort zone and decided to have a social life again!!!!! huge mistake!!!! Going to parties on the wknd, drinking, meeting assholes in bars, going out for lunch with coworkers, and buying that peanut butter! I was better when I was being a loner! not eating at all.... really small intakes..... the girl you guys were proud of! Not this I´ve become this week! :(

I need to get back in track! I need to loose this weight! I was so strong for 13 days and now everything is falling apart! I feel like crying! I suck!

To -MLS- Stay strong honey! Try not to binge. And thanks on the suggestion but I hate omelets haha
To A Friend of Ana. 112.6!!!!!!!! OMFG! youre amazing! congratsss
To Weightless. Im feeling the same! I also need to get back in track. Lets try it together starting next week.
To Skinny Love. A pound every 2 days its awesome! keep up the good work. Dont be like me!

Love you all!

Day 14

Hi guys!
I was so glad to see those comments on my last post! I thought u all forgot about me. Thank you seriously for the support.  So, my stupid computer broke or something, so now I can only post from the office and I dont know whats wrong with the configuration here but I can post as me, but when I try going into your blogs to comment it says Im annonymous or that I dont have a google account. Crazy blogger! Anyway, I will comment as annonymous I guess haha until I figure out what to do with my computer at home. this sucks!

About the guy I met, he added me on facebook haha, and we talked yesterday :) I dont use fb that much, but I guess I will a little bit more now! Today Im the same weight I was yesterday. Im OK with it. I had a small brownie yesterday (really really small I swear), so I was super duper scared of the scale this morning.  I wont do that again. You´re always saying how strong I am and I have to! I wont let you down!

I dont know why I have been drinking less water than last week! but I have to take control again!
Plan for today: Mango, 1.8 liters of water (at least), dont know what to have for late lunch. Im tired of tuna.... Any ideas???? Help!

Love you all!

Day 13

its been almost 2 weeks already since I started and every day seem more easy to archive it with success. Yesterday tho was a little harder than usual. Once again I forgot to take my pill in the morning since I slept almost until 2pm! so I just had fruit and a salad around 6pm.

watching jersey shore (oh yeahh big fan right here!) at night I felt this necessity to eat something. I went to the kitchen but I couldnt find anything!! agggg frustrating! I ended up having two hard boiled eggs.
Ok, down to business... Friday I was at 151.8 and after a not so good weekend, with the drinks sat night and the eggs yesterday, today I am 149.16

Im OK with this. Not super excited, but cant also be mad! I mean I lost 2.64 pounds in 3 days even having a couple of drinks. So Im gonna keep going :) I´ll be very strict this week and see how are things by the end of the week.

I decided Im gonna keep going after Paris for a rocking body by halloween!
I saw this costume and I just looooooooove everything about it! I cant wait to be a peacock! haha

The plan for today is: Fruit. probably mango or an apple. 18 almonds and a cesar salad.